This is one of the five Reiki principles I learnt, which I’m afraid to say I completely lost sight of last week when some anger erupted from seemingly nowhere with my kids. The whys and wherefores aren’t important here…..but the anger is.
A&A went off to school but the anger stayed with me. I felt it flow through my veins like it’d been injected into my system. Then I became really dull, like all my emotions had somehow been dampened. After a while I felt really tired. So much so that I fell asleep.
When I woke up I had a throbbing headache and my neck ached. My body was trying to tell me something and I needed to figure out what.
Interestingly we’d just had family over from the UK. We had a lovely time together but we were really sad when they left. As soon as we were up, we were out and about showing them around so I hadn’t meditated for a few days.
I knew I needed to connect with my deeper self to not only come face to face with this anger but to also go deeper than it. That way I could observe my feelings objectively, hopefully enabling some healing.
I then asked ‘What is my anger saying?’ and listened for the answers.
I kept this inner dialogue going until I got to the bottom of it. It was really interesting what was revealed and what it connected to. It turns out that my eruption was deep-seated and created a kind of body armor tightening the muscles in my head and neck. They were literally holding onto my repressed anger, creating tension. My energy was so depleted that my system actually shut down for a bit making me need to rest for a while.
Left unattended these repressed feeling can actually damage the immune system, eventually leading to all sorts of physical ailments including inflammation (literally being ‘inflamed’).
So we need to deal with these things as they come up (or get help doing so). We mustn’t let them go back down again to only reappear stronger another time. Our amazing bodies try to give us clues via disturbances, ailments, feelings, dreams etc….
Let’s not ignore them.
Let’s tune-in and listen!